so far away

i dont have much patients for mcgehee this time. i need to concider trying to lay off one weekend a month over here. my new friends new job will be mon-fri, off on weekends. i am never off on weekends. this will not do. oh well it will work out , i will think of a way. mcgehee seems really far away this time. far from crossett, really far from collingston, la. man.

its getting better all the time

better better better......:)

The Ups And Downs of it All

i havent always been this train stoppingly good looking. lol i was 372lbs not so long ago. i had to do something. after much (and this is the really short version) thinking and worring i had the gastric bypass surgery. it was, is a smashing success. i love it and if it would help i would do it again, today. the up side is obvious, the not so great side is that i did and still do greve over my loss of food. i just thoughly enjoy food and eating. i feel this way so much that i messed up my life and body doing it. well to fix things i had to give it up. the only way for me to do that was this surgery. man did it work. i gave up food . i had no choice. if i ate too much i was gonna have to deal with it again, and soon. this problem got better and better. i learned to chew my food . that sounds like a no brainer, but i just didnt do that well. i am now a chewing jedi! i have very few problems now. its been 20 months and i have lost just under 100lbs with no diet or exercise. this is great, but its not enough. i want more. the weight im at now looked and felt diffrent when i was here before. so its off to the races for me. i cant be too set in my ways, what with divorce biteing me in the ass and bachlorhood kicking me in squarely in the croch. i need to look and feel better, for myself and to others. i have great friends and some great new developements. so i have little time to waste. my sone and i are going to move soon and i think that even if it is just across town this will be the start of something that i will like and even love. so watch out friends of mine, if you see my # on your caller ID im moving . better run.

Hope Springs Eternal

If I have learned one thing (and that could be all I get ) its that when one door closes another one opens. I've had a lot of closed doors it seems, and even though its been exhausting there have been others opening, some times I just couldn't see them for the glaze in my eyes. So here's to my days of being out of the loop on this newly adopted philosophy, I'm glad to see yah go!

So, how's that for sunshine?

The Short Story

I am a Respiratory Therapist. I work at a local hospital. I have been in this field for 13 years, and it has been a most wonderful career for me. Working as a Respiratory Therapist has its ups and downs, you help to usher in new life as well as give comfort to those who are on their way out and all points in between. This is why the name of my blog is Relax and Breathe. Its not just how I try to unwind, its also what I do for a living.

what a diffrence a day makes

so as ths day goes along i am growing more and more agitated.there is no reason for this that i havent thought on before. no new turn of events nothing that i just incountered. i think i just need some fun. i am supposed to be at a party for a friend who is getting married. the wedding date isint going to be for a while so im not sure why we are getting together tonight but im all for it. i hope to be able to let loose and get happy before i get there. i am in charge of rapid fire comments and observations at partys ,as it partains to comedy it seems ( or so i think, i dont always do so well) so i hope this mood will melt enough to allow me to shake it off.

Alls Fair.......Right?

Well I cant say that the last few haven't been a ride. That much can tell you. What an emotional roller coaster this last week has been. I can say that if anything my faith in relationships has been in a strange way renewed. I was almost in one. LOL what a funny thing to say eh? Well even funnier to mean. Wonderful girl, just not ready. Slightly jumped the gun. Of course slightly means I have hit a total impasse. This is what I get for not going with my gut. Trying to let someone tell me that its ok, when I know what I see and hear. The really off part of this is that I am ok with pretty much what ever, so..............Up the cups and lets get this thing goin'.

hullova weekend

im so sick of this long weekend stuff. hows that for an opening line? lol i am thoughno time off , im never gonna meet anyone like this. the world is just spinning with or without me. i need to strap on my seatbelt. i didnt get to watch the movies i rented this weekend, same thing last weekend. talked on the phone with friends insted i guess. that is a great thing to do, talk with friends. not so easy to do when they are cool as hell, female , and smokin hot chics. lol i do get to say that though dont i . (ive been chatting on the phone with hot chics all day!!!) rotflmfao. oh well, i would rather talk to someone for 10min once if they truly loved me. ok, ok , so enough with the sappy shit, lets go to the er and do an ekg............hell yeah!!!!!