The Ups And Downs of it All

i havent always been this train stoppingly good looking. lol i was 372lbs not so long ago. i had to do something. after much (and this is the really short version) thinking and worring i had the gastric bypass surgery. it was, is a smashing success. i love it and if it would help i would do it again, today. the up side is obvious, the not so great side is that i did and still do greve over my loss of food. i just thoughly enjoy food and eating. i feel this way so much that i messed up my life and body doing it. well to fix things i had to give it up. the only way for me to do that was this surgery. man did it work. i gave up food . i had no choice. if i ate too much i was gonna have to deal with it again, and soon. this problem got better and better. i learned to chew my food . that sounds like a no brainer, but i just didnt do that well. i am now a chewing jedi! i have very few problems now. its been 20 months and i have lost just under 100lbs with no diet or exercise. this is great, but its not enough. i want more. the weight im at now looked and felt diffrent when i was here before. so its off to the races for me. i cant be too set in my ways, what with divorce biteing me in the ass and bachlorhood kicking me in squarely in the croch. i need to look and feel better, for myself and to others. i have great friends and some great new developements. so i have little time to waste. my sone and i are going to move soon and i think that even if it is just across town this will be the start of something that i will like and even love. so watch out friends of mine, if you see my # on your caller ID im moving . better run.