nota lota things to say

one might ask why post if you dont really have anything to say. well, i guess thats a good question with a reasonable answer, it is theraputic. it is to me anyway. i could understand if someone else found it hard to sit through, lol. i have a normal life, to me its normal, where things dont always work out like i want them to. it dosent seem that things balance in that area very well. i guess that is the way everyone feels. i dont have it bad or anything but this isint the way i would write the script of my life if i had the reins of some big cosmic typewriter. i have one son, he and i are two peas in a pod. i couldnt have it anyother way. i have three other kids that are my ex's. the oldest two live here in the same town. they come over often. i like for them to come (when its is of their own accord), we, i for sure, feel better around oneanother. its more like home. i know this wont last forever so i soak it up as best i can. i am missing a major ingredient though. i dont have a companion. i would love to meet the woman of my dreams and ride off into the sunset, however, i would be happy with someone i liked and trusted, who wanted to be with me too. i would like this asap,BUT, i dont want it "at any cost". this is something i have beaten down but not quite knocked out. ......im getten there,lol. till then i have great friends(when i get to see them) and everything will be alright, ..............................................................right?
well, hows that for not having much to say!!! :)