Friday, December 16, 2005

life or something like it

i have recently found that someone i thought was my friend is not. and that a past relationship was bad for us both. being a past relationship is a red flag that it wasent a bowl of cherries, but i surely didnt think that i was a bad guy. who does, i guess. this thing is that my "good friend" is now dating my last girlfriend right after he broke up with his fiance . this i thought was a real dick move on his part. the ex thing isint the problem, its the total lack of respect that followed. she now says that i was bad to her and i have recently found that she felt this way often during the whole fiasco. i really am floored by this. not a perfect relationship to be sure, but treated her bad? she didnt "get" things. this led to many a cross word when it came to the natural progression of our relationship. i offered her a way out all the time. i was clear that it was time to get on with it or get on without it. it was best to leave it alone and go our separate ways and we did. i wouldnt have had any more to say about it...... till i find that im getting it with both barrels from the two of them. YIKES!!! that is my problem. im just shocked that they would try to cast dispersions toward me when they re the ones who should be ashamed for the wrong they have done. well, hey.... maybe this is the best thing that could have happened. i loose a deadbeat friend and gain the clarity to go on into the rest of my life with the feeling that this will get me out of the bullshit and into a better place. a place where i know not to settle for half hearted friends and relationships. eeh, funny how one thing leads to another.