Trying to make it till 7PM

i have a confession, i have been in a bad mood all day. i dont want to be , i even hate to be around myself. this is the kind of thing that will i guess me my ultimate demise. there isint much about this day that is just really objectional, asind from having to work with my ex for a few. even this i can take , im a professional. i just feel "not myself". posting this is helping a bit but this is a fast acting, short duration thing. i get to have my son tonight, im sure this will make me feel better. being around him always does. on a diffrent note i hope to start in the tanning bed soon. yeah i said tanning bed, i did once before and it really was very soothing. i relaxed AND got some sun. i am of irish ancestry and am very white. this is bad cause i love to were shorts in the summer. to add insult to injury i have skinny legs too. all these things together helped me make up my mind to change the only thing i can. this is an awefully small fix cause i dont tan very well.
well, in light of a situation that i just handled, i do have the same haterd i spoke about in an earler post, id like to feel that hate isint warented for anything, but i cant seem to conger anything else up. i did , however, fix and finish the whole fu*%ing thing. and the immediate problem is a thing of the past. i would ordinarily breathe a sigh of relief after this kind of thing, but there is no end to the bullshit that i have and , im sure, will endure over the imature life of someone i use to know.