still alive here in crossett
it has been one of those strange times here in my world i am in the long slow prosses of breaking up with some one that i love , who loves me. how silly is this i want more and so does she BUT she just isint ready. thats the best explanation that i can seem to get. i wish i could get more. i wish this wasent happenning. i ame the one who seems to be killing it. i cant keep myself from going on about it. just cant seem to stop. every time i talk to her its all i can talk about. she wants me to stop pushing. and i just want to get it talked about so i will see what her needs are. i get frustrated about her inability to speek her feelings. she isint a bad person but still whats happenning to me is the same as if she was. how do u fix this? how do i stop? i will be the first to scream out loud that i have ocd and bad. i cant let it go...... i dont want to push.....but i am in a full eppisode with this issue. and the more i try to get it done with the more she retracts. AAAaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh. what a cycle. its so very exausting. i just want to matter, i just want someone to give back what im giving. man wheeeeewww. didnt think this was gonna blow out when i started this post sorry folks.
posted by Marc at 9:37 PM
3 Comments:
Aw, Marc... big hug!
Don't worry there is someone out there who will push just as hard back instead of running away. You know the old saying, if you love someone let them go...or *ahem* as I've heard it said, "RELAX & BREATHE". If she's not the one, no amount of squeezing will keep her. Be confident and secure, don't feel like you have to hold on to someone with all your might. I know it's infuritating, but it IS all about the game and sometimes people like the chase.
I give because I enjoy it--it makes me feel good. But most people are takers. Givers seldom get in return what they give. I can identify with being pushed too fast--that can be suffocating--which is not enjoyable. But I know how you feel--I'd just like a friend that would give to me instead of me always standing with my arm reaching out to them.
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